This House Is Broken

Too late to be fixed.

Too much has been broken.

No one to refer, no one to depend.

The one who broke it, just stand and laugh.

The one under the roof was blinded by the one who broke it.

The one under the roof has to collect rain everyday.

The one under the roof has to sleep with the feeling of drenched.

Rain season never stop coming.

Once it was sunny, once it was all rainbows.

Now, no longer just rain, sometimes with hurricane.

when finally can it be fixed? 

Maybe sooner, maybe never?

Will the heaven hear? Will the heaven respond?

Prayers never seem to be heard, never to be reached. 

Just hoping it all to end is just a vague vision.

it's been very long since i blog. yes ! i'm finally 18. where now i guess i'm more mature? XD but in that case life has been changing a lot. still stuck in the same uni where life is always upside down and people here are like freaking smart. OMG pressure i tell you ! it's like you just have to study everyday just by looking at your housemate or roommate studying probably every free hour at night. and oh ya ! i'm in second sem already. stuck with few classmates from previous sem and got to meet few new friends, but as usual i'm anti-social when it comes to new environment. so well, not much to talk bout it. and my score =.= sigh.. isnt doing any good so far.

now, talking bout holidays, i cant say it suck. it's quite 'fun' staying at home. but i did went out with friends but just for the sake of my face, FACIAL !!!

But still, My face is like the moon surface. pfft.

to get a porcelain face is like asking a million dollar ayy.

Spend lotsa time at home slackin and watch drama aint bad after all.

and taking care a huge stubborn baby could be exhausting but it's my role, so i dont mind =)

and that's when the bond joined.

^_^

let me share a lil happy story that i could say i love the most.

on Oct 5th i guess, Dad was admitted to the hospital and sis and I went to overnight to take care of him. well, my finals was so near so i have to study. half way studying, dady start to share stories and me too !LOL

so we practically exchange story and i finally came clean to Dad on my first relationship. XD

we chit-chatted all the way til 2 and then only i fall asleep. in a super uncomfortable position.

and another fun thing during my 18 was, i got to celebrate with my uni mates !

sis and SY buy me sushi, sis , Sue, Elaine and Jess came to surprise me and night , aunt aka cousin buy me korean meal !

yay, satisfied enough ! ^^

and the next day, get another free meal from Jaron. so practically my whole birthday present comes in the food way >.<>

BUT that was weeks back now life change again. no longer the happy and joyful moment.

Like many said, life is like a wheel, once you're up you will sometimes be down.

and now, i'm at the down positon.

My guardian angel, i see Unforgettable in you. the way you behave , the way u speak, the way you used your strength to gather yourself similarly to him.

but you are so stubborn to listen to anyone. your ego brought us down. =(

if you only listen and put the trust on us, by now, you are able to stand on your own.

you give me the enlightment when you start to listen and put your faith on us.

now that i'm away, you stopped everything.

everything has to start again, waste of effot and time, dont you wanna live the way you are as before?

the time is still ticking there's time and hope still if you just keep the faith.

for all i hope, is what i want the future to be.

so please, the battle is still on, we'll fight this together. love you. <3

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH

STAY STRONG

BELIEVE !

The Dark Force

FML

that's what everyone said almost everyday when u go online on faceboook or anywhere. but now i REALLY want to scream FML !

i had a terrible week. wait, let me rephrase that.

A COMPLETELY, HORRIBLY, UTTERLY, FREAKINGLY TERRIBLE WEEEEK.

there.

From day one, i suffered the 'lost' of my precious lappie for a few weeks and there again i have to dump it at the 'hospital' because some idiot 'raped' it.

day 2, moodless for completely no reason and end up making myself frustrated.

day 3, i have something called 'pain' due to the nature of what all woman should have.

but on day 3 i was able to go for movie marathon with Sis and Yin and completely enjoyed STREET DANCE 3D and SALT

but the next moment, my phone decided to die on me !

yes, white out screen and from then i couldnt able to entertain myself a single bit in this tortured campus !

day 4, of being down for my phone, stepped in class and couldnt get what the lecturer is saying and even lecturing in front. WTH

but during Calculus tutorial, i COULDNT EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT HE IS TUTORING.

I'm either too dumb or i'm just that stupid in Calculus.

but worse come to worse, being in a fiery mood

i ACCIDENTALLY deleted all my inbox including the PRECIOUS messages that i have been keeping for years.

From teachers and friends and even my cousin !

Oh **** man !

but after i went back , i complained everything to my roommate, Elaine and felt sorta relieved but still cant stop but feeling down.

But after dinner, went for a brief walk and enjoy the night starry sky that brought a smile to my face cause what I know, Unforgettable , is watching over me.

=)

Sigh..

couldnt my life get any worse?

I seriously need a time out. I know this is the part and parcel of life but come on !

all this happened in a row?

isnt it a lil too pushy for a <18>

i know that all these came from me.

whatever that reaches my hand will eventually spoil.

No. actually real fast but come on, give me a break !

So sorry i complained a lot here but i finally felt much relieved after blogging this.

Whatever it is, time to get ready for tomorrow's test and BLAH !

^^

screw this F***ing week ! =X

UNI LIFE

yes ! i'm back ! first of all, i want to say.. I LOVE U KLANG !! you must wanna know why, of all places, i love klang? it's because of the 'jail' life , i mean uni life which practically locked me up in the campus completely.

ORIENTATION(week 1)

Nuffsaid, orientation started really lame. But as it goes on, I actually enjoyed it. Well, it's a start of a new life, i meant a new educational state. =.= crazily, my batch intake was 1200. believe that? that's like Damn ! but we Chinese is the minority. friends of mine, you do know why I'm upset with that fact right?

Back to orientation. From day one till day 6,( from Saturday all the way till Friday )was pretty exhausting. waking up everyday at 545 am just to assemble at 615 am. and for this @#$%^* orientation, i missed Beast Showcase in KL Live which is just few kilometers away from campus T.T

And during the orientation, they prepared lots of activities that were really... speechless. Everywhere we went, speech speech speech. Talks , talks and more talks. Our butts suffered you know that? The only nice thing was just the Nike KL run where they LEND 200 pairs of their latest sport shoes for a test run. come on, just give it away ! And also knowing few awesome people.

But after all this thingi we'll walked all the way back to our apartment. speaking of apartment, let me elaborate for you how my room looks like. for every room, it has another 2 mini rooms that fits 2 person each. So i have a wonderful roommate named Elaine and two house mate named Sue San and Jessica. Sue is the hot topic in our batch now. ^^

back to my room. WORST OF ALL, THERE IS NO TELEVISION = No Entertainment.

The hall is so empty that we really rot in our room. sigh.

I miss Klang seriously and if there's any chance we could bring a pet there, I'll bring lil' Snowy. my white 'prince' and i wont be bored no more. =)

week 2: introduction classes

This week was even worse. woke up at 6am and I'm bathing cold freezing water. I know i complained much but I'm a human though>warm blooded you see. cold water in the morning can cause huge problem : fever.

then, prepared my not-so-heavy breakfast and get ready for class where i be there by foot. and brilliantly, as always, i slept again in class. hehehe ! and surprisingly, not during Physics class, the first class of the day after waking up at 6 am where only lectures and no brain storming. huge surprise ! well, just for me i guess. okay, let me talk about my lecturers. my Physics lecturer. he's fine seriously. a nice man always with his 'fishing vest' as quoted by many seniors but one thing , he don't even know what is he teaching ! u see that? for example; when he teaches Significant figures , he goes :" err... the zero in front err.. not important but the zero behind is errr... important ! ah ~ " and when he does a mistake he'll just : "err... YA KAH? oh.. i test u saje.." and he always with his monotone lecture, how am i suppose to survive ? my goodness. okay jumping over to my English lecturer. i must say, he's a very good teacher. Luckily Uniten is smart enough to provide good teachers and appropriate teacher to teach the English language or not we can just fail our paper. But again, Mr Gerald is the best English teacher i ever had. =)then, my Maths teacher( which the subject is known as Introduction to Calculus) was good. She can teach well, explain well and bla bla, you compose it.

But me, for being well known in my high school life as the sleeping queen, I slept in her class on the first day itself ! spare me ! tee hee XD . But coming over to my Physics Lab lecturer is a very cute little miss . Yes she is. She reminds me of Pn Salehah who teached me Science before when i was Form 3. wait a minute, my lecturer is also named Salihah. wow ~! 'dejavu'? Last but not least, my Computing Skills lecturer, known as Mr Alan which really reminds me of Mr Gerald. they have the same teaching skills. You can laugh during class and all but remember never to mess with him on any circumstances.

...

Normally after class, i'll be back to the room sleeping or normally head to Up10 (a food court in campus, great food though) to hang out with a new clique.

but on week 2 , I joined sis and SY to Midvalley ^^ and i felt like i just escaped out of jail.

we shopped and ate sushi !! ~_~

week 3: official classes

same as the week before just that it's more exhausting and confusing due to all the stress provided by tutors. Unfortunately for my class, we have the same lecturer for our Physics. I can now bid farewell to my Physics. T-T

week 4 will be this week and i'll be having quizzes which is 10% of my finals. OH NO !
so wish me luck !

Stress is caused by being 'here' but wanting to be 'there."' ~Eckhart Tolle

stay strong, Angel of mine and always keep the faith. Love you =)

Encounter

The Encounter Moments..

#1 at the mall

last Sunday, went Aeon Bukit Tinggi because Dad was in a good mood.^^

he says I'm allowed to shop for my Uni stuff with Mum and i did.

While looking around at the jeans corner, YK spotted a friend and he thought was JH's friend and when i saw that person, i went blank.

The next moment, i went jumping towards that friend like a monkey hugging her.

At first, i didnt quite notice her. First i noticed the one beside her, it was Subarthy.

and when i switched my glance, it turned up to be Tharshiini!!

And in the middle of the aisle, the Dukudu and I was jumping like monkeys hugging each other and Mum got shocked looking at me behaving such. hehe XP

#2 at the Brickfield's temple.

as my previous post, i went to the Brickfield's temple with my family.

then i got to visit from stalls to stalls.

And there's this one stall which i have know idea about.

I just stood there and all of a sudden, an old man came from behind me and asked,

" want to donate your organs?"

and i was like *eyes wide open*

*smiles* "oh, it's okay. No thanks." *walks away*

OMG. As much as i want to do charity, let me complete my life or till i'm completely 18 to make my mind for organ donation. XP

#3 at the bank

Yesterday, half way after Jing yee invited me for lunch, Mum called up for me to go to the bank to open an account for study loan.

*sorry Jing*

After the whole process before waiting for my ATM card, i was asked to deposit a note of RM 50 into my account and so i did.

Then there was a man who helped me. Turned up that man has a daughter at my age who is still rotting at home like me.

Then, Mum chat with him quite sometime. Basically on education. >.<

And my card came, and the generous man taught me on how to use it.

I was thankful for an extra hand.

Thank you very much, generous uncle. =)

# at KP's washroom

today, went to KP with Chris, aunt and grandma. because 3 of them wanna have their haircut session. So i went there to watch and sit. >.<

After Grandma finish her cut, she wants to go to the washroom.

So, i played my role to accompany her.

And the first thing i wanna do in the washroom is "mirror........"

and so i did. Grandma was far behind when i entered the washroom.

So i looked at the mirror. and a glance to my right, JUST A GLANCE !

I noticed a back of a person standing facing the wall

In a glimpse of 0.2 seconds, i thought, "shouldnt that be a male?"

And YES ! OMG. I turned behind and saw the Female signboard on the other entrance.

Just then I found out I"M IN MALE TOILET !! OMG !

I ran out and OMG (again) , I bumped to a not-bad-looking guy.

Oh shitty shit ! the MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE !

despite dancing shyok sendiri or saying hi to a friend that dont even realise.

EEKS....!! >.<

# 5 at 2L

After KP, aunt went to the boutique 2L to get her outfit cause she's going to Korea this Saturday.

*JEALOUS*

I went there to see if there's anything i can purchase.

While i was looking and 'analysing' the area, the sales assistant came up to me asking if there's anything that i want.

i just told her that it's okay and i'll look at my own.

Then she praised my hair of being so nice and stuff and down came asking me what i want.

so to avoid awkwardness i just 'layan' her and see what can i get.

practically she's just stalking me.

(yes i know u are suppose to do your job but give me a choice)

Then i picked out the formal tee she suggested and tried on.

it's nice but WAIT.

EVERYTHING there is NICE but NO $$$

The formal tee i tried has thing lil' holes that exposed my inner gourment and that she adjusted for me and keep touching the sides of my blossoms.

Gosh.. that was freaking awkward.

i know we are girls but i have my own individual thoughts u see.

After making my choice on what to buy, she still keep persuading me to buy this and that.

and when i smile sweetly and said it's okay and she goes

"bu yong jing la.. hen mei de"

(nevermind la.. very nice one..)

then when i said "it's okay. wo bu yao" (i dont want)

and she'll go

"yer.. ni hen huai dan de lo"

(yer.. you very naughty one lo..)

=.="

GOODNESS !!

but, anyhow..I got a formal tee and a formal pants thanks to my aunt, Aunt Julie .

Thank you very much !!!! =DDDD

THE END

22.5.10

On this very date is the birthday of a special girl called Joanne Low Mei Teng.

And on this day we, which includes birthday girl, JY(Jing Yee), JH(Jia Hui), an alien(unknown species) and I went to The Curve. We sat in 'the alien' spaceship called Honda Civic.

Session 1 TGIF

Our first session which is our dinner was at TGI's Friday. it's our last option cause we've been circling The Curve 'pasar malam' for a few rounds to make our choice and certain restaurants takes a long time for the booking for just a table. The quote "pasar malam" for the stalls along the restaurants was by some alien who just landed at malaysia according to birthday girl. ^^

At TGIF we made our decision on the choice of food quite long cause the name is so weird. i guess. Then we girls started to cam whoring before food and after the food are served.

But before anything are served, a waitress come with few tissues and placed on each of our table and Alien asked the waitress, "this tissues are for what ah?". As usual Alien with his Alien-ness. ~_~

Mr Alien was looking so excited watching Football on the TV, in addition of scanning woman around the corner. Perhaps his 'planet' doesn't have chicks and football. LOL ^^

#shot 1: JY and me

We actually planned to burst out the manager that we have a birthday girl with us, BUT Joanne(short term Jo) said that it will be SUPER embarrassing for us and definitely we too. Therefore, we put our plan off. Sad. =S

#shot 2: i swear but crossed my finger XP

#shot 3: great drink

the 4 people drinks: the one with strawberry is b'day girl's, blue is JH's, green is JY's, and plain yellow is apple juice. Alien's one.

Birthday girl enjoying the yummy ice blended =)

#shot 4: my lovely Mac & cheese, ^^

#shot 5:MMMMMMMMM~

Presenting *drumrolls* Mac and cheese (First that came;appetizer; snack)

first dish that came: VIP speciality for B'day girl,Joanne

Then came JY's food: fish and chips

Then it was JH's meal: Mac & Cheese pasta.

comment: very cheesy~ seriously..

Then came Alien's food: Grilled salmon. it's actually tasty, but as an alien, he forget about the lemon. So his comment was *gag*

The best for the last.

mine came last, drinks and food. my stupid mango juice came last and that's why it's not with the 4 people's drinks.

and my food came last too and all of them were drooling over my food^^

Alien who refused the food.

Session 2 THE LIBRARY

After TGIF we went to The Library for our second session: DRINKING !!

We went there to drink but Mr Alien here sticks with his Apple juice. And insisting of me being

underaged.

.

introducing Mr Alien with his ' no pictures please '

we cheers and he..

with his apple juice AGAIN!

u should what species is this: the paiseh species

Picture moments with birthday girls and again cam-whoring.

Bday girl and me

Bday girl and JH

Bday girl and her cousin JY

Mr shy and b'day girl

b'day girl, me and JH

#shot 6: yeah baby! i'm ready for a drink !

JY with her HOEGARDEN. which is like the best among the seven beers.

The girls

The seven exciting beer

#shot 7: cheers !

But the best drinker of the day, JH and JY.

#last shot: Groupie.. with a weird 'alien'

3rd plan, Balik rumah.

Alien decides to "fly" his spaceship in a high speed which nearly caused me a heart attack while the rest stay cool. and how was that so?? *wonder*

and the highest speed: 190 km/hr.

OMG!

Reached home safely but enjoyed the entire night due to certain event. ^^

I put off some story for the laziness in me but hope the pictures will tell the rest of it.=)

That's all for now.

Secretly, Jaelynn.♥

cancerific words

Today I watched E!news- THS: Farrah Fawcett. and it was a heartbreaking article about her. although her death news was at the same time with Michael Jackson, I now only realised that she was a true fighter against cancer, which I honoured. To sum it up, this is the article that I could get about her.

Cancer

Fawcett was diagnosed with anal cancer in 2006,^[36] and began treatment, including chemotherapy and surgery.^[37] Four months later, on her 60th birthday, the Associated Press wire service reported that Fawcett was, at that point, cancer free.^[38]

Less than four months later, in May 2007, Fawcett brought a small digital video camera to document a doctor's office visit. There, she was told a malignant polyp was found where she had been treated for the initial cancer. Doctors contemplated whether to implant a radiation seeder (which differs from conventional radiation and is used to treat other types of cancer).^[39] Fawcett's U.S. doctors told her that she would require a colostomy.^[40] Instead, Fawcett traveled to Germany for treatments described variously in the press as "holistic",^[41] "aggressive",^[42] and "alternative".^[43] There, Dr. Ursula Jacob prescribed a treatment including surgery to remove the anal tumor, and a course of perfusion and embolization for her liver cancer by Doctors Claus Kiehling and Thomas Vogl in Germany, and chemotherapy back in Fawcett's home town of Los Angeles. Although initially the tumors were regressing, their reappearance a few months later necessitated a new course, this time including laser ablation therapy and chemoembolization.^[10] Aided by friend Alana Stewart, Fawcett documented her battle with the disease.^[40]

In early April 2009, Fawcett, back in the United States, was rushed to a hospital, reportedly unconscious and in critical condition.^[44][45] Subsequent reports, however, indicated that the severity of her condition was not as dire as first reported.^[46] On April 6, the Associated Press reported that her cancer had metastasized to her liver. Fawcett had learned of this development in May 2007 and her subsequent treatments in Germany had targeted this as well. The report denied that she was unconscious, and explained that the reason for Fawcett's hospitalization was not her cancer but a painful abdominal hematoma that had been the result of a minor procedure, according to the Los Angeles cancer specialist treating Fawcett, Dr. Lawrence Piro. Her spokesperson emphasized she was not "at death's door", adding "She remains in good spirits with her usual sense of humor ... She's been in great shape her whole life and has an incredible resolve and an incredible resilience."^[46] Three days later, on April 9, Fawcett was released from the hospital, picked up by longtime companion O'Neal, and, according to her doctor, was "walking and in great spirits and looking forward to celebrating Easter at home."^[47]

A month later, on May 7, Fawcett was reported as critically ill, with Ryan O'Neal quoted as saying she now spends her days at home, on an IV, often asleep.^[48] The Los Angeles Times reported Fawcett was in the last stages of her cancer and had the chance to see her son Redmond in April 2009, although shackled and under supervision, as he was then incarcerated, Fawcett seemed not to notice. Her 91-year-old father, James Fawcett, flew out to Los Angeles to visit.

Her doctor, Lawrence Piro, and Fawcett's friend and Angels co-star Kate Jackson—a breast cancer survivor—appeared together on The Today Show dispelling tabloid-fueled rumors, including suggestions Fawcett had ever been in a coma, had ever reached 86 pounds, and had ever given up her fight against the disease or lost the will to live. Jackson decried such fabrications, saying they "really do hurt a human being and a person like Farrah." Piro recalled when it became necessary for Fawcett to undergo treatments that would cause her to lose her hair, acknowledging "Farrah probably has the most famous hair in the world", but also that it is not a trivial matter for any cancer patient, whose hair "affects [one's] whole sense of who [they] are". Of the documentary, Jackson averred Fawcett "didn't do this to show that 'she' is unique, she did it to show that we are all unique ... (T)his was ... meant to be a gift to others to help and inspire them."^[49]

The two-hour documentary Farrah's Story, which was filmed by Fawcett and friend Alana Stewart, aired on NBC on May 15, 2009.^[48] The documentary was watched by nearly nine million people at its premiere airing^[50], and it was re-aired on the broadcast network's cable stations MSNBC, Bravo and Oxygen. Fawcett earned her fourth Emmy nomination posthumously on July 16, 2009, as producer of Farrah's Story.^[51] The winner of the Emmy for Outstanding Nonfiction Special, announced September 12, 2009, was the History Channel production 102 Minutes That Changed America, an eyewitness-video look at the events of September 11, 2001.

Controversy surrounded the aired version of the documentary, with her initial producing partner, who had worked with her on Chasing Farrah, alleging O'Neal's and Stewart's editing of the program was not in keeping with Fawcett's wishes to more thoroughly explore rare types of cancers such as her own and alternative methods of treatment. He was especially critical of scenes showing Fawcett's son visiting her for the last time, in shackles, while she was nearly unconscious in bed. Fawcett had generally kept her son out of the media, and his appearances are minimal in her reality series Chasing Farrah, which was filmed four years earlier.

Death

Fawcett died at approximately 9:28 a.m., PDT^[52][53] on June 25, 2009, in the intensive care unit of Saint John's Health Center in Santa Monica, California, with O'Neal and Stewart by her side.^[54][55] A private funeral was held in Los Angeles on June 30.^[56] Fawcett's son Redmond was permitted to leave his California detention center to attend his mother's funeral, where he gave the first reading.^[57]

The night of her death, ABC aired an hour-long special episode of 20/20 featuring clips from several of Barbara Walters' past interviews with Fawcett as well as new interviews with Ryan O'Neal, Jaclyn Smith, Alana Stewart, and Dr. Lawrence Piro.^[58] Walters followed up on the story on Friday's episode of 20/20. CNN's Larry King Live planned a show exclusively about Fawcett that evening until the unexpected death of Michael Jackson several hours later caused the program to shift to cover both stories. Cher, a longtime friend of Fawcett's, and Suzanne De Passe, executive producer of Fawcett's Small Sacrifices mini-series, both paid tribute to Fawcett on the program. NBC aired a Dateline NBC special "Farrah Fawcett: The Life and Death of an Angel" the following evening, June 26, preceded by a rebroadcast of Farrah's Story in prime time.^[59] That weekend and the following week, television tributes continued. MSNBC aired back-to-back episodes of itsHeadliners and Legends episodes featuring Fawcett and Jackson. TV Land aired a mini-marathon of Charlie's Angels and Chasing Farrah episodes. E! aired Michael & Farrah: Lost Icons and the Biography Channel aired Bio Remembers: Farrah Fawcett. The documentary Farrah's Story re-aired on the Oxygen Network and MSNBC.^[60]

Larry King said of the Fawcett phenomenon,

“

TV had much more impact back in the '70s than it does today. Charlie's Angels got huge numbers every week — nothing really dominates the television landscape like that today. Maybe American Idol comes close, but now there are so many channels and so many more shows it's hard for anything to get the audience, or amount of attention, that Charlie's Angels got. Farrah was a major TV star when the medium was clearly dominant."[61]

”

Playboy founder Hugh Hefner said "Farrah was one of the iconic beauties of our time. Her girl-next-door charm combined with stunning looks made her a star on film, TV and the printed page."^[62]

Kate Jackson said,

“

She was a selfless person who loved her family and friends with all her heart, and what a big heart it was. Farrah showed immense courage and grace throughout her illness and was an inspiration to those around her... I will remember her kindness, her cutting dry wit and, of course, her beautiful smile...when you think of Farrah, remember her smiling because that is exactly how she wanted to be remembered: smiling.[62]

”

In March 2010, the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences caused controversy when Fawcett was excluded from the "In Memoriam" montage at the 82nd Academy Awards ceremony, along with fellow television stars Bea Arthur, Gene Barry and Ed McMahon. In addition to Ryan and Tatum O'Neal, friends and colleagues of Fawcett publicly expressed their outrage at the oversight, including actress Jane Fonda and film critic Roger Ebert.^[63] AMPAS executive director Bruce Davis cited Fawcett's recognition at the 61st Primetime Emmy Awards for her "remarkable television work," and said of all the exclusions: "There's nothing you can say to people, particularly to family members, within a day or two of the show that helps at all. They tend to be surprised and hurt, and we understand that and we're sorry for it."^[64]

She is buried at the Westwood Village Memorial Park in Los Angeles, California.^[65]

For it, I'm really impressed with her spirit. Especially when she said " I know why i was diagnosed with a cancer. God gives me this because He wants me to help others to fight this and find the cure together." That is what I was so inspired about.

But then, something happened.

A: why do you wanna watch this show?

B:don't you find it touching?

A: cancer cancer die la!

After that I just keep my mouth silent and hold back the tears. It was really a strong hit that blew me off. Even i had the chance to say out anything, i kept on smiling looking at my cellphone pretend nothing ever happened. But the Scar left was deep. And to tell YOU one thing, THAT WAS THE MEANEST THING I"VE EVER HAD FOR THE PAST 17YEARS AND 7 MONTHS I HAVE LIVED!! and 'thank you' very much!!

anyway, some word can't be read because of the colour i don't know. Just Highlight the page and u'll get to read it clearly. thanks.

p/s: if you think you're not wrong or you think you don't know anything, stop it! shut up and leave!