Tired of Tears

TO MY BELOVED DADDY

24/11/11.

Clearly remember what happened that day, what i wore that day, what I said, what I did, and how u looked at me that day.

It still stay vivid on my mind. received the worst news ever more than Unforgettable.

The fact u're gone hurt so deeply that I'm completely numb to even cry.

I only can shed tears but it seems helpless to cry my heart out.

Why is it so fast for You to leave us and so long more of our journey to move on?

The scar you left was deep but the memories you left was endless.

I HATE WHEN YOU"RE GONE.

Everyday time is going and passing and I'm going through all these traffic.

I just wanna go back to the past where there used to be US.

The 8 of us. Where He and You're still in.

Now it only left 6 of us and it's so hard to stand firm and strong in front of those people.

So hard to go through life , so hard to go through each day without thinking how nice will it be if you were still to be around.

This was Just last end year you brought this tiny little monster and make him my precious and today I'm his tight enemy. Lots happened when you're gone.

I remembered the first time this lil' monster tried to attack and you rescued me and he treats me like his precious again.

today there's no you, and I've turned into his tight enemy. and just another stranger.

Time flies it feels it was just yesterday you left. without words, just a cold stare that I cant explained. But I'm happy you waited for me. but the saddest part was there's no last messsage. I just wish you could tell me more of you and share more of us.

Where we used to share much in the hospital when i was with you chatting away of your past life.

The fact you're gone now really hurts a lot.

THE ANGER THE DISAPPOINTMENT

THE FRUST that you're not around kills.

The sight of a small girl with her daddy being clingy stings right in the heart.

I no longer have the chance.

NO LONGER.

I'm so sick of tears now.

Numb of it.

Meaningless.

It doesn't help heals the aching heart. It makes the ache worse.

Pa, one year has been lots of up and down without you.

The seldom visits hurts even more.

Not just Mum needs you but Us too.

Mum hide her pain and don't show, but we know how hurt she is more than us inside.

Please dont push us away because clearly We All miss you more than any words can say.

#IMYP